I was very much a loner in school, I had no friends, I was scared of teachers, I could not understand all that I was studying and every one of the teachers commented: “She is capable of performing better if she worked harder.” It didn’t make any sense to me except that I felt real bad inside.
I met Shri Mataji for the first time when I was in fifth grade. The moment I saw Her I felt my heart fill with Her love. I don’t know exactly what happened but the sadness within me disappeared. Immediately after, my class ranking rose to fifteenth! Not impressive, I agree, but it was the best I had ever managed and somehow this gave me a lot of confidence and, for the first time, I felt interested in the subjects I was studying. Lessons began making sense, teachers started showing me a little love and now I had friends. I knew that Shri Mataji had changed my environment – but in retrospect, was it my environment that changed or had I?
I transferred to high school and for the rest of that academic year, my ranking varied between first and tenth. I was elected as monitor for two consecutive years and was nominated for House Captain. I had lots of friends and the teachers loved me. I now enjoyed studying.
Circumstances changed, and much later, I found myself talking to the Dean of Management at the London School of Economics. I told him that even though there’s no reason to admit me to the Management program, I wish he would, because I wouldn’t let him down. So, he promised me admission provided I completed a year of Diploma in Business Studies with credit. Pure miracle! While studying, I meditated regularly and tried to put my attention at Shri Mataji’s Feet as much as possible. I used all the techniques taught in Sahaja Yoga to clean my Chakras to get in balance. When I found it difficult to be attentive I would give vibrations to my liver. When I found it difficult to memorize, I would recite “Smriti Rupena Samsthita” mantra. I ended up completing the Diploma with merit (better than credit). As a result, I ended up studying for a M.Sc in Management at LSE.
A few years later, I found myself in Mississippi where I couldn’t officially work as I didn’t have a work permit. So, I joined a college to study for a Bachelors in Computer Information Systems. I ended with 4.0 GPA and Wall Street Journal Award for Academic Excellence. My professors at University of North Alabama poured their love and compassion on to me, my co-fellows offered their friendship.
Unquestionably, my practice of Sahaja Yoga meditation changed my attitude to learning completely and I now thoroughly enjoy learning.